Music is happy,

But it's impossible to count on music to bring him all the happiness 24 hours a day.

What else?

It seems that he can only count on the white powder.

But that's not good,

It's not a real solution to the problem.

He's in pain.

The pain comes from the difference between life and ideals,

The separation between "I have to" and "I want."

He doesn't know how to solve this problem, and he doesn't know who to ask.

Iris once said that family is very important, but he can't let it be a burden to him.

Now,

Hayley asked him,

Are you happy?

Real Happiness.

Critics say he played himself in several of his most acclaimed films — "The Mosquito Coast," as a responsible eldest son, and "Wanted No Man Left Behind."

Another responsible eldest son; "Come with Me," a righteous teenager who wants to leave the class of his birth.

These roles are more or less part of himself.

Many child stars can't handle these things well: family and personal, responsibility and self, when they're in the stage between adolescence and adolescence.

They're exposed to all the things and things they shouldn't be exposed to in the big dye vat of Hollywood,

Sometimes the family can help them resist the bad influence, sometimes it pushes them into the abyss.

Aline tried her best to protect him from the corruption of Hollywood,

But it wasn't completely put an end to it.

From this point of view,

He thanked his mother for protecting him, and for giving.

But he also knew,

He was different from other child stars, even from ordinary children.

His psychiatrist said,

He should learn to be "selfish,"

Learn to think more for himself,

“I

need，

I

Want, so that he won't be driven crazy by himself.

He has anxiety disorder. The panic disorder of flying alone is a form of anxiety disorder. He is always worried that he won't do well enough and will disappoint his parents and brothers and sisters.

He always dreams that he and his family are back to the time when they didn't have enough to eat. Every morning when he gets up, he thinks about how much money he has to get for the whole family. Every night when he lies in bed, he thinks about where tomorrow's breakfast is.

He's still a baby. He shouldn't be responsible for the family's livelihood. It's too heavy for him.

"Hayley," his voice was low and hoarse, "I don't know what to do.

I can't imagine what would happen if I left home and Aline. "

Hayley sighed. "It's not like we stopped contacting each other after leaving home.

Are you no longer Aline's child when you're not at home? "

She pulled out her hand from behind her back and gently stroked his cheek. "It's always like this in the animal kingdom. When the children grow up, the big birds will push the chicks out of the nest and let them learn to fly by themselves.

You're big.

Boy, you should learn to live by yourself. "

"I'm afraid, very afraid." He took her hand and kissed her palm.

Warm tears fell into her palm.

"You have to think clearly. Don't think about me, just think about yourself.

I can't tell you what you should do, and I can't always stay here and wait for you.

You and I are both independent individuals. No one can't survive without the other.

I shall be glad for you if you can live a little more freely and happily.

Now, you can go back and sleep. "Her fingers gently wiped away his tears.

He closed his eyes and felt the gentle touch of her fingers. It was as if they were brushing against his heart. It was numb, soft, melancholy, and painful.

*

Hayley went back to the bedroom and put Juven's birthday gift into the drawer of the bedside table, but she did not open it.

She took off her robe and lay down again.

6 am.

What exactly was love?

Like Mom and Dad, who loved and trusted each other?

The love between a young man and a young woman must be as hot as fire and inseparable. However, even such a love would inevitably be shattered by unexpected events and separated by human greed.

Did she love Juven?

It seemed that she loved him too, but it should not be like Mom and Dad, who could trust each other.

She and Juven were not people who could open their hearts to others. Even if they said "I love you" every day, they still could not "trust" each other.

Love was such a strange thing!

*

On Monday, Hayley returned to Berkeley.

The exam week had begun, and Little Robert Downey arrived in San Francisco on Monday.

The shooting of the new film had not officially started yet, so he went to Berkeley in the afternoon.

Hayley received him in the apartment.

"Baby." He handed her a bouquet of flowers. "White roses, yellow roses. I remember you like these two flowers."

"Thank you." Hayley took the bouquet. "Come in."

"I thought you went to school."

"I did. I had exams in the morning and had a break in the afternoon.

I still have exams tomorrow. "

"Then should I not have come?" Even though she said that, she did not turn around and walk into the door.

"What are you doing?

Reading? "

"No." She sat down with a smile. "Reading before an exam?

That's not me. "

It wasn't the first time Little Robert had been to her apartment, and he had never seen her reading. He was surprised. "I thought studying in Berkeley would be very stressful."

"There are classes five days a week. As long as you make good use of those five days, there's no class that you can't learn."

She said casually, "It's the same at Harvard and Yale. As long as you study a little more, the exam week will be very easy."

Little Robert admired her for that.

No matter what class or profession, people would still treat smart children who were good at studying and doing things differently.

"I used to think that you …" He smiled. "It seems that you can't believe legends."

"Did you hear what others said about me?

That I only know how to play? "

"Probably." He didn't have to tell her what he had heard.

"I don't have to spend every minute of my free time on studying." She brushed her hair casually. "Are you taking me out for dinner?"

"I've booked a restaurant. Can you leave now?"

"Wait a minute. I'll go change."

*

Hayley's dating status had subtly changed to two people at the same time.

After the exams, when she returned to Los Angeles, it became Savannah, Jim, and Little Robert taking turns to ask her out.

Savannah was very strange. "You don't go to those Hollywood parties, so they shouldn't be around you.

Aren't there beautiful women everywhere in Hollywood?

Can't they look for other girls?

They're taking up all your time! "

"Don't you need to date?"

"Boring!

The boys in school are so boring! "

Savannah was furious. "They want to kiss after only two dates. Dinner is even worse. They want to have sex with you.

Tell me!

Do all these men use their little heads to think? "

Hayley laughed. "It's not too late for you to realize."

"Forget it. Let's not talk about this.

What are your plans for Christmas? "

"Helen and Alexander are going to Spain for a vacation."

"Huh?

What about you? "

"Me?

I'm definitely not going with them.

Do you want to go anywhere?

I have a small budget. How much do you have? "

"A few hundred yuan." Savannah looked troubled.

"You'll be in charge of dinner. I'll book the plane tickets and hotel. Let's go somewhere less popular. Or Las Vegas?"

Savannah agreed immediately. "Let's go to Las Vegas!

We can drive there. "

"Is it okay if you don't spend Christmas Eve at home?"

"I'm going to spend it at home, but you can come with us. I'll go back and talk to Mom.

Then we can leave overnight after dinner. "Savannah smiled." Isn't that a good plan? "

"Pretty good. It's decided then. I'll call the hotel."

They quickly made plans for their Christmas vacation.

Savannah asked, "Don't you want to be with Jim or … Bob?" She said "Bob" in a strange tone.

"Jim is going home for Christmas. He'll leave the day after tomorrow.

Bob might go to New York for a few days. His sister lives there. "

"Does Jim have siblings?"

"Yes, he has three sisters and a brother."

"Tsk, tsk. Look!

They all have siblings. You're the only child. "

"So?" Hayley was confused.

"You don't understand what it's like to have siblings."

"Ah, you have siblings too. You can explain it to me."

"You know that Bill and I used to fight a lot when we were young, right?" Families with many siblings were like this. The children fought with each other all day long.

"Yes, you even hit Luke." Luke was Savannah's brother.

"The point is not that we fought a lot. Even if we beat each other all day long, we're still siblings, you know?

I mean, I don't have any conflicts with them to the point where I want to kill each other with a flamethrower whenever I see them. Boys are annoying, but if someone dares to bully me, Bill and Luke will help me. They don't care about their reputation in front of their friends.

I'm their sister. We're related by blood. "

Hayley thought for a moment. "So, I don't understand how you treat siblings."

"You don't have that experience, and you don't understand how we think."

Hayley was very distressed. "I don't understand."

She didn't have that kind of experience. Helen was also an atypical mother. It was indeed difficult for her to understand children in families with many children.

"Bill can be a jerk sometimes, but he's the older brother. He's the eldest son. He has a responsibility to me, Luke, and Amy. At least until we're adults and leave home, he will take care of us."

"Juven is the same, but Juven is not a jerk."

Savannah laughed. "Yes, Juven is very good.

I'm willing to trade Luke and Bill together for a brother like Juven. "

"Ah, didn't you just say that they're your blood relatives?"

"That doesn't stop me from thinking that other brothers are better." Savannah said with a smile.