Qiao Lan had thought about how to stop Tan Mo from lying to her, how to treat him well, and how to make him feel safe, etc.

This was what she wanted to do.

However, it didn't mean that Tan Mo wouldn't do anything.

Qiao Lan wanted to find a chance to talk to Tan Mo about this, but she couldn't find a chance.

She realized that as long as she observed Tan Mo carefully, she could tell whether he was telling the truth or lying. Or rather, with Qiao Lan's understanding of Tan Mo, she could roughly guess Tan Mo's real thoughts.

Qiao Lan didn't find a chance to spend the weekend with Tan Mo, because Tan Mo was very real during those two days. Qiao Lan could tell that he was very happy at first glance.

Tan Mo was shocked by Qiao Lan's sudden serious tone. He raised his head subconsciously and met Qiao Lan's eyes. Qiao Lan stared straight into his eyes, not allowing him to look away.

"I don't like this reaction."

Tan Mo was stunned.

His eyes were uncontrollably messed up.

No one knew how afraid he was of Qiao Lan saying that she didn't like him.

Qiao Lan saw the confusion and panic in Tan Mo's eyes. She couldn't help but feel sorry for him, but she still continued, "Do you know why?

Don't look down, look at me. "

Tan Mo's gaze, which was about to look away, trembled. He looked at Qiao Lan again and lowered his voice.

"I don't know."

Qiao Lan sighed. Her voice softened, and she said with a slightly hurt tone, "Because of this reaction, I can't feel that you like me. It makes me feel that you don't care about me that much."

"No," Tan Mo answered quickly. Some answers didn't even require thinking. "I only care about you."

"Then why did you ask me to go so calmly?" Qiao Lan asked. "If I were you and you wanted to go to a place full of strangers and girls who think you're handsome, I would definitely be unhappy."

Not … not happy? Tan Mo stared at her blankly. "Why …"

"Because I like you. Liking you is very overbearing and unreasonable. I don't like other girls looking at you. I don't like you being with other people and taking up my time with you. I don't like people secretly looking at you and liking you when I don't know, so I definitely don't want you to go.

But if you have to go, I'll think about it. I'll ask you what time it ends. When you come back, you'll ask if there are any other girls who like you. You'll have to ask me some questions that will make me feel at ease. After all, my boyfriend is so handsome and outstanding. "

Tan Mo looked at her silently and did not say anything.

Qiao Lan continued as if he didn't know anything.

"If I were you, I would do this. I like you, so I want to express it. I want you to know that I care a lot.

I can't do it calmly unless I don't care, or I want to hide my thoughts and pretend that I don't care. But since we're in love, we should be honest with each other. We shouldn't hide or lie.

So Mo Mo, with your reaction, does it mean that you don't care about me or that you're hiding your thoughts and pretending that you don't care? "

Those dark eyes stared at him just like that. Tan Mo had a guilty conscience and didn't dare to look at her like that, but Qiao Lan didn't allow him to look away.

Was it because she didn't care or because she wanted to hide her thoughts and pretend that she didn't care?

Tan Mo's whole body was cold and his hands were stiff.

If he still didn't understand Qiao Lan's intentions at this time, Tan Mo wouldn't have been able to get into this school.

Qiao Lan said so much, but in the end, she just wanted to ask him why he hid his thoughts and lied to her.

She found out that he lied. She found out that he lied to her.

She said that people in love shouldn't lie, but he lied to her.

Qiao Lan was disappointed in him.

The moment the word "disappointed" came to his mind, Tan Mo felt like his heart was being twisted in pain.

What would happen after being disappointed? He would slowly dislike her. What would happen after that? Break up?

Leave?

Never see her again?

Tan Mo felt the blood in his body turn cold. He sat there in a daze and didn't move. After a while, he opened his mouth almost subconsciously.

"I don't care. I only care about you."

"Then why did you lie to me?"

"I thought you'd like this …"

She liked that he wasn't selfish. She liked that he didn't cause trouble. She liked that he was generous.

Thought?

Like this?

Qiao Lan looked at him like this and really felt sorry for him. She just wanted to hug him and rub him, but in the end, she resisted.

"Let's go back to the previous topic. If you join a club and I say 'go ahead', will you like it?"

"… I wouldn't."

"Then why do you think I'd like it?" Qiao Lan sometimes didn't understand. Although she knew that Tan Mo did it for her, why did he think that she would like such a reaction? "Tan Mo, I don't like it either."

This time, she directly called him Tan Mo.

And she said she didn't like it again.

Her heart felt like it was stabbed by a knife again.

"It's not the same," Tan Mo said. After he finished speaking, he was silent for a while before he continued, "You and I are different."

Tan Mo was probably too desperate. In an instant, he even thought of the most unacceptable situation. Some words that he never dared to say in front of Qiao Lan were now said out loud. "I'm not a normal person. I don't understand other people's words. I'm possessive, paranoid, extreme, and even delusional. Why would I lie to you? It's because I don't dare to let you know what I'm really thinking.

I don't want you to go. If you don't agree, then I'll take you back. It's useless no matter what you say. I don't want you to have friends, you have relatives, and I don't want you to see anyone other than me … "

"Then do it."

All of Tan Mo's words stopped because of Qiao Lan's words.

It was as if he didn't react. After a long time, he said, "What …"

"I said do whatever you want to do." Qiao Lan looked at him. She didn't look like she was joking. "Have I ever told you when I started to like you?"

Tan Mo was stunned for a moment. "No."

"You asked me what I would do if you couldn't stand up. That time," Qiao Lan said. "You asked me what I would do. I said I would take care of you for the rest of my life. That was when I realized that I liked you."

Tan Mo's fingers trembled. It was actually … that early …

He always thought that it was after he stood up.

"I remember when I first met you, I kept talking to you, but you ignored me. At that time, you were much more difficult to get along with than you are now.

You always felt that others were trying to harm you. Whenever things didn't go your way, you would want to commit suicide. You were lifeless and didn't have any vitality. Compared to now, you didn't understand human language at all. You were completely following your own thoughts and were unreasonable. You couldn't even stand up. "

Qiao Lan's words were merciless. After listening to Qiao Lan, Tan Mo didn't even know how to look at her. He was so bad. He didn't know what was good for him.

"But I still like you." Qiao Lan's tone softened. She reached across the table and touched Tan Mo's cheek. "Do you know how much I like you?

You definitely don't know. You definitely don't know what you mean to me. "

"… What?" Tan Mo became a fool who didn't know how to speak.

"I grew up in a family that was like a pile of mud. It was dark without light. I couldn't retreat, but I couldn't see what was ahead. You are a ray of light. The light that brought me out of the darkness was my salvation.

You were always afraid that I would leave you. How could that be? You are my light. Even if a cactus doesn't need water, it will still die if it leaves light. "

Tan Mo didn't know what it felt like to die. He only knew what it felt like to survive a disaster.

It was like this now.

Tan Mo felt like he had walked through hell, but was suddenly pulled back by Qiao Lan and brought to heaven.

How could a person like him be light? How could he be salvation? Qiao Lan was the light and salvation that he pursued. He even felt that these two words were an insult to them.

However, Qiao Lan looked at him seriously and told him that this wasn't a lie. It was the truth.

"Possessive, paranoid, and extreme. These aren't symptoms of Asperger's disease. These are symptoms of love. You're not the only one who has them. I have them too.

The things that I said to you at the beginning weren't just to lead you on purpose. They were my true thoughts. I hoped that you would say your true thoughts when I said that I wanted to go somewhere else, and not what you thought that I would like.

I've seen your true self, and it's also because of your true self that I'm hopelessly in love with you. I like you only because you are you. If you pretend to be another person, then you're not the person that I like. "

"Do you want to continue like this and become a stranger to me, a person that I gradually don't like?"

"No." Tan Mo shook his head without thinking.

In every true love, there would be no one who wouldn't feel inferior.

So inferior that they would work hard to become someone that the other party liked and abandon themselves.

However, he never thought that the way that Qiao Lan liked him was completely wrong.

Qiao Lan was probably still disappointed in him.

Because even he was very disappointed in himself.

Tan Mo wanted to ask, but he didn't dare. Qiao Lan saw that he wanted to say something, but stopped. She asked him what he wanted to say, and then quickly said, "Don't lie to me!"

"Are you …" Tan Mo said with difficulty, "Are you disappointed in me?"

Qiao Lan smiled. "No, I was a little sad at that time, and also a little angry. You're angry at me, not you, but you're not disappointed."

"Why?"

"Because I can't bear to."

Tan Mo's eyes were dry. He suddenly wanted to hug her just like that, but he suppressed it in the end. "… I was wondering why you were angry at yourself."

"Because I was wondering if it was because of me, because I subconsciously wanted you to get along well with everyone. That's why you did this. Mo Mo, I'm sorry, I misled you. In the future, follow your heart, okay? Do whatever you want to do, don't worry too much."

Tan Mo finally woke up, but after hearing this, he was stunned again.

After a while, he said, "Can I do whatever I want?"

Qiao Lan didn't answer his question. "You just said that if I want to join the club, what will you do?"

"I don't want you to go. If you don't agree, then I'll take you back. It's useless no matter what you say. I don't want you to have friends, you have family, and I don't want you to see anyone other than me …" Tan Mo was like a repeater, replying dryly.

"Yes, this." Qiao Lan finished eating and wiped her hands with a wet towel. "If you don't want me to go, I can do this, but not the other."

"I'll do whatever you say I want …"

"Do whatever you want. I don't want you to hide anything, but I'll tell you what you can and can't do.

We're a couple, so we can communicate and negotiate. You and I can make concessions, but we can't lie. Instead of guessing what I like and what I don't like, why don't you just ask me if I like it? I'll be happy to tell you. "

Communication was the best solution. As long as the two of them had each other in their hearts, there was nothing that couldn't be communicated.

Tan Mo might have a hard time understanding this sentence. He lowered his head and thought for a long time before he finally understood. He finally made up his mind to try a new way of communication.

"Then I don't want you to go to the club in the afternoon."

Qiao Lan nodded. "Okay."

"Then," Tan Mo paused and said, "Can you not go?"

"No."

Tan Mo: "… Why?"

"Because this is your punishment for lying to me for so long." Qiao Lan stood up and pinched Tan Mo's face. "When I asked you if you wanted to join the psychology club, you stubbornly said that I'll go if I want to. Do you regret it now?"

Tan Mo's shoulders drooped.

Now he thought about it.

He really regretted it.