My Struggle
Chapter 13
"I was wondering what it was. Turns out it's because you haven't eaten the water turtle soup and sea bass. Ming 'er will definitely prepare a lot of food for you to eat to your heart's content. Why bother with water turtle soup and sea bass?
If your body is hurt from crying, won't Aunt Min and Uncle Lin be worried? "While saying that, he waved his hand toward Zi Juan and said," Aren't you brewing medicine outside?
Quickly go and take a look! "Zi Juan was startled and hastily bowed and left the room. Xue Yan also followed him out and urgently asked for hot water to make tea.
Baochai then turned his head toward Daiyu and said, "I know you must have other things in your heart. You must not vent your anger on yourself. Why bother?
If not, you and Uncle Lin should write a letter to ask what decision you should make. It's better than mourning and blaming yourself like this. "
Daiyu quietly said, "I only brought Xue Yan and Wang Mama with me when I came to Maternal Grandmother's house.
Sooner or later, I've already been scolded by the older women for eating and drinking for free. For such a small matter, if I ask them to send a letter here and there, won't they hate me to death? I'm afraid Father will be worried about me, so I'll just forget about it. "Finished speaking, she coughed violently again.
Baochai conveniently helped her to take the sputum box, and then reached out to pat her back. He was shocked to find that this girl was so thin that her spine hurt his hand. In that instant, his heart was filled with pity, "Just write it. Depending on the distance, my family already has a traveling merchant who can go to Yangzhou to buy it.
Quietly send a letter home. First, it will let Uncle Lin know about you. Second, it will help you solve your current predicament. Nobody will know, nobody will complain. Won't that be good? "
She looked up at Zi Juan, who was brewing medicine outside, and then she pouted her lips toward the other half of the green-screen cabinet. Daiyu's face immediately turned red.
"Good Jiejie, I always thought that you usually don't say anything. You must be hiding something in your heart. If you didn't know anything, you would have seen through it but didn't say anything. Today you see clearly what's good for you!
I only beg Jiejie to save me. I didn't know that my maternal grandmother's family was so different from others. "As she spoke, her sorrowful sobs gradually rose, and the rims of her eyes reddened.
Baochai couldn't do anything about it. Some people were born with deep tears, so it was useless to be anxious. He could only console her and say, "Since that's the case, Ming 'er, after the banquet is over, you can come to my place and sit for a while. Brush, ink, paper, and inkstone are all ready. The girls also have playmates, so they won't disturb you.
Once you've written it, you can send it out with the caravan heading south. It'll only take three to five days for it to reach Master Lin's hands. "
Daiyu had not heard such warm words for a long time. Sobbing and choking, he stopped his tears and nodded. In the end, he even felt embarrassed.
Baochai saw that her hair was messy, so he smiled and pointed to his own bun. Daiyu stood up and looked at herself in the bronze mirror. She pursed her lips and blushed.
She went to open her dressing box and took out a comb. Baochai took it and gently combed her hair. He looked left and right, and then nodded and put down his hand, "All right. No matter how unhappy you are, you can't humiliate yourself. Wash your face, rinse your mouth, and change your clothes. You can't be casual just because there's nobody around. Who knows when they'll come back on a whim."
As he said that, Xue Yan came back from outside with hot water. She was busy brewing tea. Baochai stopped her and asked Ying 'er to fetch some water for Daiyu to wash her face, rinse her mouth, and change her clothes. He also took care of tidying up the mosquito net. Only then did he open the window.
A gentle breeze mixed with the fragrance of flowers blew in from the courtyard, filling the room with its fragrance. Daiyu pursed her lips and smiled, "Ming 'er must pay a visit to Jiejie. If I have such a real Jiejie, then …" As she said that, she looked as if she was about to burst into tears. Baochai hastily stood up and changed the subject, "Do you want to take a walk around the courtyard?
I heard that you don't have much of an appetite. If you're tired, maybe you can eat more and sleep better at night. "
At that moment, Zi Juan came in from outside with a bowl of freshly brewed medicine. When she heard Baochai's words, she hurriedly handed the bowl of medicine to Xue Yan and asked her to take care of the medicine. She opened the closet and took out a plain cloak made of leopard fur.
After Daiyu took the medicine, she picked up a piece of candied fruit and put it in her mouth. Only then did she stand up and put on the cloak and walk out side by side with Baochai.
The two of them didn't walk forward. Instead, they took a detour through the moon gate and headed towards the peach blossom forest on the hillside.
At that moment, the flowers were wilting. It was the season of spring, and the ground was covered with a thick layer of petals.
Daiyu took pity on the fallen petals. She picked the path with the sparse petals and slowly walked forward. Baochai supported her from the side, and they walked around the peach trees.
After walking for a short while, Daiyu's body became unsteady. Baochai hurriedly found a clean white stone and helped her sit down. "That's enough for today. We'll go back after resting for a while.
When you're free, you can come to my place to play. Make some needles and chisel some books. If there's anything you want to eat, just tell me. Everyone says that the Suzhou, Hangzhou, Huaiyang cuisine is exquisite and delicious. I've never seen it before. Thanks to you, I've been able to broaden my horizons. "
Daiyu smiled and pointed to the fallen petals on the ground. "It's a waste for these flowers to fall into the mud. Why don't we collect them and bury them in one place so that they won't sink into the mud and lose their innocence …" Baochai knew that she was thoughtful and didn't try to persuade her. He just stood up and helped her gather the pink, white, and light red flowers into a pile. He used a garden hoe to dig a shallow hole and pushed it in before covering it with some soil.
Daiyu stared blankly at the covered fallen petals. Unconsciously, tears fell from her eyes again. She sobbed for a while and said, "I'll come back another day to pay my respects to it. Let's go back now." The two of them walked back together. Baochai took his leave and returned to Pear Courtyard. Only then did the day pass.
Ying 'er followed Baochai all the way back. As they walked, she complained, "This Rongguo Province is also a mansion of a high official. How can they be so cruel? Their grandson and maternal grandson are raised in the same place. They're too careless."
Baochai didn't turn his head. He only said softly, "They're all pitiful people. It's good to lend a helping hand. Perhaps in the future, we'll be in dire straits ourselves. The more good karma we have, the more likely we'll be able to survive."
He didn't mention this matter for the time being.
The next day, a banquet was set up by the lake outside Lady Jia's courtyard. Baochai had asked Bai Lu to distribute the money the night before. Therefore, the kitchen was especially busy today.
All kinds of exquisite and novel dishes were served in an endless stream. Occasionally, there were desserts or soups made from flower petals. There were also women who had been invited to sit there and talk about interesting things in the marketplace. Women, old and young, sat around leisurely and amused themselves.
Daiyu's favorite water shield soup and stewed sea bass were also served. Unlike her usual sarcastic attitude, she sat quietly at the table and ate while thinking about what she should say in the letter to her father.
She was quiet here, but the others weren't necessarily quiet.
Baoyu rolled around in Lady Wang's arms and ate a piece of peach blossom cake. Then he rubbed against Lady Jia's side and drank a mouthful of jasmine, cherry, peach, and other flowery soup. Other than Feng Jie, he was fluttering up and down like a butterfly.
Lady Jia's grandniece, Shi Xiangyun, who had just been picked up from her maternal family, was also there to tease them. She took off her outer coat and sat down. She hadn't stopped talking since.
Baoyu always stuck to Daiyu's side, and so did Xiangyun. Daiyu found them noisy and went to Baochai's side. Finally, Yinchun, Tanchun, and Xichun also came over. Lady Jia clapped her hands together and said happily, "We, the Heavens and the Earth, love to see these lively young ladies gathered together.
How about this, we'll sit in the hall and arrange for the female lead to come over and sing a few songs. Let their sisters-in-law serve them, and the young ladies can drink wine and write poems. "
The maidservants and aunties immediately set up the table and spread out soft bedding. They picked up a few boxes of exquisite and sweet snacks and placed them on the table. They were free to take Eight Treasures Tea, Almond Soup, and Lotus Seed Tea.
Feng Jie came over and helped Lady Jia into a large hut by the lake. The female lead played the pipa and sang slowly. Lady Xing and Lady Wang hurriedly followed to serve her.
After the banquet, the young ladies immediately loosened their restraints. Only Li Wan and a few other maidservants stood guard to prevent any accidents. The others scattered in twos and threes to play around the lake.
On the other side, Tanchun took the lead. She called a few of her personal maidservants to find a lot of flowers and plants and gather them together.
One said, "I have Guanyin Willow", another said, "I have Luohan Pine", another said, "I have Junzi Bamboo", another said, "I have Canna Canna" … and so on for fun. A few other maidservants followed Baoyu into the flowers and picked a big basket of petals. Together with Xiangyun, they ground the petals into juice and played with the rouge. Yinchun and Xichun sat and watched Baochai take a silk thread to make tapestry. Li Wan sat on the side and commented. There were so many different things that one could not generalize.
When the banquet was over, Baochai invited the young ladies to go to Pear Courtyard to sit together. Everyone went around the eaves and passed through several moon gates to join in the fun.
The outside of Pear Courtyard was surrounded by fragrant grass. The servant opened the corner gate. Seeing Baoyu behind, he frowned and said, "Ge 'er, why are you here again?
It's not good to entertain men here … "While they were talking, Yuan Yang came from behind and pulled Baochai aside." Good Miss, "she begged," Old Madame said that Baoyu is still a child.
He is happy because he got along well with his sisters today. He wants to go to your courtyard to have a cup of tea and rest his feet. You don't have to rigidly adhere to the distinction between inside and outside. In any case, your sister-in-law Zhu is here. Nothing will go wrong. "
Baochai had no choice but to pinch her nose and nod to the servant to let her go. She didn't expect that this person would follow her here after being rejected. Moreover, she was staying in someone else's house. She didn't want to give anyone face, but she had to give Old Lady Jia face.
Baoyu did not know how to look at other people's faces. He squeezed his way in and said, "Good Jiejie, next time I know I have to ask Ancestor to bring Yuan Yang Jiejie here. Your door is too difficult."
Ying 'er stepped in front of Baochai. She smiled and gently pushed him to Xiren, who was smiling with her hands folded, and said, "Bao Er Ye seems to have eaten a few cups too much. I'll have to trouble Xiren Jiejie to wait on him in the side room to sober up." Everyone laughed and interrupted. Only then did they turn the page.
Tanchun saw the colorful threads on the embroidery rack. She could not help but reach out to pick up a thread of green stone and stroke it a few times. "The colors of your embroidery thread are rare. I have not seen many of them before.
Most of the things you buy and send in are not good. You even have to send people out to exchange for them. "
Baochai smiled and opened the drawer and took out a small box to show everyone. Inside the box were neatly arranged embroidery threads of different colors. "This is the thread that our Jinling shop specially made. It was originally put in the shop to sell. Because the color is good and does not fade, it is very popular.
Look, I ordered them to send some over as well.
If you like it, you can take it. It is a family business. There is no extra charge. Use it as you wish. "
Tanchun touched it fondly and said, "In that case, I will take your good things. Later I will ask the attendant to give you a painting."
Baochai ordered Ying 'er to distribute the embroidery boxes according to the number of people. She also prepared an extra box and gave it to Xiren, who was guarding Baoyu. "Sister, thank you for taking care of Bao Er Ye diligently."
Xiren took the box with an embarrassed expression. Baoyu, who was sitting in anger, also came over to take a look. He said happily, "Several of my maidservants complained that the thread was not good. In the past, they used to laugh at their own clumsiness. Now that they see the good things here, they know that the thread is really not good. If they get this and go back and prick flowers, they will not be able to refuse."
These words were acceptable to others, but Xiangyun, who was sitting a seat away from him, was unhappy. "When it comes to chiseling needles, one depends on kung fu and the other depends on talent. For example, some people have a fierce and dull look when they pick up a needle. Even if it is golden silk and jade thread, their ten fingers are like wooden clubs and they can't do anything. There are also those who can't pick up the horizontal needle or the vertical needle for a year or two. No matter how beautiful she is, she won't even get a purse."
Yinchun, who was sitting next to them, felt that it didn't look like it. She hurriedly pointed to the half-finished work on the embroidery shelf and said, "Pao Girl, is this the embroidery of Guanyin?"
Baoyu answered her and said, "Yes, because it is still mourning this year and it is not easy to do it. My mother said that if we embroider such an embroidery of Guanyin in the future, it will be a good deed. It is a blessing."
As he said this, he walked over and took out a book, "These are some pictures of flowers that I drew when I was bored. You can help me look at them." Yinchun pulled Li Wan to look at it together. Tanchun and Xichun took out a set of chess pieces and started to play.
After everyone played for a while, Xiangyun suddenly said, "Third sister, didn't you always say that you want to start a poetry club?
Why didn't you start a poetry club this time?
Why did Baoyu come here and do these things again? I really don't want to do it at home every day until midnight. "
Daiyu suddenly sneered, "Aren't you diligent and clever?
Don't you want to do more and leave a good name for yourself? "
Xiangyun was stunned and didn't say anything. She turned her head and threw the handkerchief in her hand to the ground and walked out. As she walked, she shouted, "Everyone else is a rich young miss, but I am just a commoner girl.
I can't even say a word. My heart is narrower than a cow's hair! "
Baoyu hurriedly got up and bowed a few times to Daiyu, begging her not to be offended. He then ran out with Xiangyun and pulled her to somewhere to coax her.
The hall was quiet for a while. Li Wan took the lead and led the three Springs to leave, "Pao Girl must be tired today. Let's go and have a good rest!
Congratulations on your brother's big day. In the future, we will have to meet the scholar! "
Baochai smiled and sent them out. He turned his head and pointed at Daiyu a few times, trying to stifle his laughter, "You, ah, your mouth is so harsh. Look at how embarrassed Little Yun is. If you continue to be like this, she won't be on good terms with you."
Daiyu pursed her lips and said, "There is no one else who is as nice as her. She always wants to step on one person and pull one person along. Does she think no one knows?" She stuck out her tongue and said, "Good sister, forgive me this time. I won't dare to do it again."
Bao Chai poked her forehead and said, "Go ahead. The East Room is the study room that my family often uses. Go back after you finish writing the letter. I asked Zi Juan to go and paint flowers with Ying'er."
Daiyu obeyed and sat down. She laid out the brush, ink, paper, and inkstone and slowly began to write. Egret followed beside her and poured tea. Bao Chai came out to watch Ying 'er and Zi Juan match the colors of the patterns.
After about an hour, Bai Lu sent Daiyu out. Zi Juan saw her and hurriedly walked to the door. Daiyu was not in a hurry to go out. She turned to Baochai and said her goodbyes.
After Bai Lu sent her out of Pear Garden, he came back and said, "Miss Bing, Miss Lin's letter has already been given to the second master. Why do you have to look at Old Lady Jia's granddaughter so favorably?
I see that this girl is very thin and doesn't look like she has a long life. "
Baochai waved the round fan in his hand and said, "It's just that we are in the same boat. She needs someone to help her out more than I do.
How can I bear to see a perfectly good person's life in vain?
In any case, it's just a matter of convenience. There's no need to fuss over it too much. "As he said this, he went back to change his clothes and went to sleep.
On the other side, Xiangyun said something to Daiyu and ran out to get angry. Baoyu hurriedly chased after her and spent a lot of effort to coax her back.
When they returned to the cupboard at night, they ran into Zi Juan who was sending out the used bowls and chopsticks. Baoyu hurriedly stopped her and asked with a wink, "Lin meimei, are you still angry?
Yun meimei was just careless and did not mean to insinuate her. Moreover, Yun meimei has lost both her parents. Isn't that even more pitiful?
You should try to persuade her sooner or later, so as not to harm the harmony between sisters. "
Unexpectedly, these words were heard by Xue Yan who was holding a lantern at the door. She immediately got up and said, "Bao Er Ye should know that in this world, it's not about who's more pitiful and who's on the side of the more pitiful. The one who provokes first is cheap. What else can you say when you're blocked?
Could it be that our Miss is a Buddha who has to be kind and yield to others when they choke on her face?
Moreover, if that good-tempered Pao Girl is willing to tolerate it, then that's their business. There's no need to force others to yield to others! "
In the past, whenever Xue Yan said one or two words to Daiyu, she would stop her. Today, she simply hid in her room and ignored him. She closed the door and blocked Baoyu outside as well.
Her thoughts were clear. Today, she saw her grandmother's actions and blindly connived Baoyu's actions. In the long run, she would cause trouble. How could she, a pure and innocent girl, be muddle-headed and allow others to ruin her reputation?
Seeing that Baoyu was also unwilling to stay in the Jia family for a long time, she was afraid that the day his widowed mother and elder brother arrived in the capital would be the day he would return home. What should she do then?
She would have to write a letter to her father stating the pros and cons. At worst, father and daughter would return home to reunite. Even if they had to eat rice and vegetables every day, it would be better than being pointed at by others and making a ruckus today.
In the past, because she lived in the Jia Mansion, she had to swallow her anger. If she made up her mind to leave the Jia Mansion, who would put the Shi Family in her eyes?
Now that she had made her decision, her heart was suddenly enlightened. Her pent-up anger disappeared. After washing her face and rinsing her mouth, she fell asleep. It was a rare deep sleep.




