Xufeng drank two bowls of peanut soup, which was enough for today's breakfast and lunch.

Like this, it could be considered a new day.

As usual, Xufeng took a cloth towel and walked over to the shrine platform, wiping the two memorial tablets clean. He wiped the smaller one more slowly and carefully. When his fingers brushed past the two characters' Carp ', they trembled slightly.

After wiping them clean, Xufeng lit three sticks of incense and kowtowed three times. Like this, the day's morning lesson was over.

Xufeng walked over to the couch and lay down. Soon, he fell asleep.

He had that dream again.

In the hazy drizzle, on a small mountain path, Carp was lying on his back and on his shoulder. Yu 'er was lying in his arms. Perhaps because they were tired from playing, the two of them were sleeping soundly.

He deliberately slowed down his pace, afraid that he would wake them up. The short path actually took half the morning.

Suddenly, Yu 'er opened her eyes. She looked at him with a sweet smile and asked, "Aren't you tired?"

He also smiled. "How could I be tired?

I wish that this path would never end. "

As if in response to this sentence, the path beneath their feet suddenly extended, extending all the way into the thick fog ahead.

When he lowered his head again, everything in his arms and on his back was suddenly empty.

Then, Xufeng woke up.

After sitting in a daze for a long time, Xufeng placed the two strings of beads, one blue and one transparent, back under his pillow. Then, he sat back down at the table and took out the dragon scale from his chest. He continued the homework he had been doing for the past year.

Yu 'er, I've come to talk to you again.

Right now, I only have one serious matter to do every day. Don't think that I'm annoying.

Yesterday … Mm, we were talking about Carp.

You named your child Carp, and I really liked it.

I remember you telling me that when you were young, you wanted to be a carp, but you couldn't. If Carp could be made, that would also be very good.

I also saw the Spirit Concealing Bead you made. At that time, I thought, my Yu'er is indeed the most capable. Nothing can stop you.

You carried Carp to Dongting Lake. That was the first time I saw your mother. According to the rules of the mortal world, she is also my mother.

That's why I'm still thankful for the bead. Otherwise, I would never know what she was like. My imagination of her would only stop at the traitor that the Mother Goddess spoke of.

She was a gentle woman. Later, when I saw her coaxing Carp, I roughly understood why you turned into the person I knew.

You didn't look back when you left, but I know you left half of your heart there.

The other half was still given to me.

You came to look at me in front of the Marriage Mirror every day, and then you came down to accompany me every day.

Even in this life, I am entangled with Jin Mi, but you are still by my side.

Yu'er, you used to laugh at me for being stupid, but you didn't know that you were even more stupid.

As long as you showed your second form, I, a mortal, might have fallen head over heels for you.

But only at night, when I fell asleep, would you show your true form and talk to me.

But you also know that I can't hear you.

Even if you cry and beg me not to leave you, I can't hear you.

Even if I hear you, I won't remember you, and I won't respond to you.

You even gave me your only reverse scale … but I never gave you my Huan Di Phoenix Plume.

I never told you the reason, but now that I think about it, I just find it laughable.

Yu'er, you like plain clothes and wear white clothes all year round. At that time, I was always afraid that if I wore this golden hairpin, it would attract the attention of the Mother Goddess and bring you a lot of trouble.

But I didn't know that I was your biggest trouble.

Later, I generously gave it to someone else, but it wasn't you. When you found out, were you sad?

Speaking of which, I digress again. Look at this problem of mine, it has become more and more serious in the past two years.

Let's talk about Carp again.

Carp slowly grew up. He looked like me, but more like you. Especially his eyes, they are like a copy of you, as if they can speak.

He is so obedient, much quieter and more sensible than when I was young.

Every time I see you hugging him, I feel very satisfied, even if I'm not by your side.

My only regret is that I didn't get to call him "Carp" with my own mouth, hear him call me "Father" with my own ears, and … see him grow up …

Xufeng suddenly choked up and couldn't speak. He covered his face for a long time before he started talking to himself again.

Yu'er, do you know, after Carp left, I had a very, very long dream? That dream was very, very beautiful …

I dreamed that when Carp was born, you and I took him away from the Heavenly Court.

I was no longer the Fire God, and you were no longer the Night God. We were the most ordinary couple in the world, a family of three living a peaceful life.

I became a hunter, and you know my archery skills. As long as I make a move, I will definitely get something. So our lives were quite good.

As for you, you became a teacher in the town. Other than teaching the children in the town how to read and write, you also took care of Carp.

I secretly went to see you a few times. Carp mixed in with a group of half-grown children, shaking his head. It was very funny.

On the other hand, you stood in front of the lectern with the same cold and otherworldly appearance as you did on the Star Distribution Platform. You were so beautiful that I couldn't take my eyes off you.

Every evening, I would wait at the intersection in front of the door for you to come back with Carp. As long as Carp saw me, he would definitely run over to me and ask me to carry him.

I would carry Carp with one hand and hold you with the other to go home.

During dinner, Carp would always ask you to feed him, but he refused to eat properly. He would twist left and right, and his face would often turn into a messy butt.

I would laugh at him, but he wouldn't accept it. He would turn around and complain to you, saying that I bullied him. It made you put on an act and scolded me.

But I know that in your heart, you still couldn't bear to do it. Otherwise, why would you smile at me every time after you scolded me?

Sleeping at night was the most troublesome. That little guy Carp, I didn't know how many unrealistic wishes I had to make to coax him to sleep on the small bed in the next room.

But it was fine if I made a wish. In any case, once he fell asleep, he would forget most of it the next day.

The days passed. Although every day was the same, when I think about it now, I still feel that every day is new.

I still remember one day, on the third of March, the people in the town went to worship the mountain god.

Although we both thought that the mountain god was nothing more than a piece of land, we still couldn't stop Carp from joining in the fun.

The one who wanted to join in the fun was him. The one who fell asleep on my neck in the middle of the ceremony was also him. Moreover, his two hands were very persistent in pulling my ears.

On our way down the mountain, it started to rain. After a while, I saw that your clothes were stained with mud, so I carried you in my arms.

At first, you were unwilling, but in the end, you couldn't persuade me.

I carried you like this and carried Carp on my back as we slowly walked down the mountain.

After that … there was no after that.

There was no you, and there was no Carp. From the beginning to the end, it was just a dream of mine …

I woke up. I heard that uncle spent a lot of effort to wake me up.

He had a worried look on his face, but I didn't know what expression to use to face him.

Yu'er, not many people know about our relationship. Uncle is one of them.

He clearly knows how sad you are.

When I returned, he said that he vaguely felt that something was wrong.

But he didn't mention a word about it to me.

In the end, he still has a prejudice against you. It seems that the people around me have never really treated you well.

Uncle is fine, but Mother Goddess and Father Emperor …

Yu'er, you didn't do anything wrong.

From the beginning to the end, I was the one in the wrong.

Now that I think about it, how stupid was I back then? How shameless was I to think that I could comfort you with a cup of wine, but I didn't even notice a trace of your heartache?

Carp is your child, and also mine. He died at the hands of my parents, and I kept saying that I would take revenge for them.

You were right. I was blind and my heart was blind. I lived for thousands of years, but I couldn't see through a single person by my side.

I once set up a memorial tablet for Mother Goddess in Yu Jiang Palace and worshipped it every day. Before I left the demon realm, I went to see her one last time.

I told her that I remembered her kindness in raising me, and I would pay for all the sins she had committed. But if there was an afterlife, I didn't want to be mother and son again.

I was unfilial, but I couldn't bear her love.

Not to mention them, even I deserved it.

I didn't remember before, and I didn't know how you knew where my inner core was.

But the moment you disappeared, I remembered.

[Run Yu, this is where my inner core is. Xufeng swears today that if I let you down one day, I will have my essence pierced by your sword. Xufeng won't complain at all.]

This was my promise to you. I let you down, so I fulfilled my oath. Death is the retribution I deserve.

But you felt so sad for me later … I know that you didn't want to kill me at all … It was me who thought I was infallible and let you down …

Yu'er, I … I'm really not worth it …

You once said that as long as I was by your side, you wouldn't hate me so much, and you wouldn't feel so much pain.

But when you were in the most pain, I didn't know anything. I lived my own happy life in the human realm.

What right do I have to make you feel pain for me?

You should forget about me and be your Celestial Ruler.

You and I are different. You have great kindness in your heart, and you have all living beings in your eyes. If you can be the Celestial Ruler for ten thousand years, it will be the fortune of the six realms.

The life of a god is long. You will eventually meet someone more worthy than me and entrust your life to them.

Yu'er, you shouldn't have saved me.

At that time, Jin Mi always said that the person who saved me wasn't her, but she couldn't say who it was. But the moment I thought of you, I understood everything.

That person was you.

It could only be you, and it would only be you.

But it was already too late. The person who gave me my life … had her life taken by my own hands.

Yu'er, do you … hate me?

The moment you left, did you regret it?