On this day, when Run Yu woke up, Xufeng was no longer in bed.

Ever since that day, Xufeng had always been waiting for him to wake up together. Thus, as soon as Run Yu opened his eyes, he was wide awake.

Run Yu looked out the window. There was a faint glimmer of light, so it should still be early.

Suddenly, an extremely soft sound came from the cubicle. Runyu knew what was going on and quietly got up.

Xu Feng was currently cleaning the shrine platform. She carefully wiped down every corner, especially when she was wiping down the two memorial tablets.

Run Yu stood behind him. He watched as Lin Ming held the small memorial tablet and looked at it for a long time. After a long time, he lifted his hand and wiped the corners of his eyes.

Xufeng placed the memorial tablet back on the shrine platform. He lit some incense and bowed three times before turning around.

As he saw Run Yu, he was startled. He looked down and saw that Run Yu was barefoot. Without saying anything, he picked him up and walked towards the bed.

During this time, Run Yu stared at Xufeng, observing his expression.

It wasn't until he was placed on the bed that Run Yu reached out and touched the corners of Lin Ming's eyes. There was still a bit of moisture there.

Xufeng was stunned. He held Lin Ming's hand and softly asked, "What's wrong?"

Run Yu didn't resist. He allowed Lin Ming to hold his hand.

He wanted to ask, "Xufeng, do you also miss Carp?

Do you also feel sad? "

But so what if he asked?

In the end, Carp would never come back.

Run Yu finally shook his head.

Xufeng sighed. He kissed Lin Ming's forehead and then went to the kitchen.

When Run Yu sat down at the table to eat breakfast, Xufeng had already gone to the market alone.

He had clearly promised to be honest with Lin Ming, but the result was that he was still disappointed.

Once again, Run Yu could not help but sink into that kind of long-lost depression.

Run Yu didn't move his chopsticks for a long time. Suddenly, the courtyard door creaked. Xufeng had returned.

Xufeng walked into the dining room and saw that the breakfast in front of him was untouched. He sighed again.

Run Yu subconsciously looked at the things in his basket and couldn't help but be stunned.

It was mugwort, bamboo leaves, red beans, and glutinous rice flour.

Run Yu looked up at him. Xufeng's eyes were a little wet.

"So you remember …"

"Hmm … Today is Carp's birthday. I remember that he loves green dumplings the most."

Run Yu's vision blurred.

Xufeng took a deep breath and reached out to Run Yu. "Do you want to do it together?"

Run Yu held his hand. "Okay."

Run Yu skillfully lit the stove. Xufeng boiled a pot of water, added some salt, and put the mugwort in to cook. Then, he picked it up and put it to the side to pound.

Run Yu followed Xufeng's instructions and boiled another pot of water. He added red beans and continued to cook. He went to Xufeng's side and kneaded the dough.

As he kneaded, a few drops of water suddenly fell into the dough.

Xufeng hurriedly stopped what he was doing and came over to hold his face. Run Yu's face was full of tears. He choked and said intermittently, "In the past … I've never made green dumplings for Carp … I don't have time … I've never made them for him even once …"

Xufeng wiped Run Yu's tears while his own eyes were red. "Then let's make them beautiful today and let Carp eat the best green dumplings, okay?"

Run Yu nodded desperately, but he couldn't stop his tears. Xufeng could only hold him in his arms and gently pat his back. After a while, Run Yu slowly calmed down.

The two separated and continued to do their own things. Xufeng occasionally told Run Yu what to do next so that his hands were never empty.

About two hours later, the green dumplings were ready.

Xufeng took out a brand new bowl from the cupboard. It was slightly smaller than the one they usually ate. He put the green dumplings in one by one, from bottom to top, neatly.

Run Yu carried the bowl and placed it in front of Carp's memorial tablet.

On this day, the two knelt in front of the shrine until the sky was dark. Only then did they get up.

Perhaps because he had knelt for too long, Run Yu staggered and almost fell. Xufeng hurriedly caught him and carried him to the bed.

Run Yu's face was covered with tears, and his eyes were swollen beyond recognition. He looked like he was in a daze.

Xufeng was going to get some water to wipe his face, but Run Yu grabbed his clothes.

"Don't go," Run Yu said.

"Okay."

Xufeng sat back on the bed and wrapped him in the quilt, holding him tightly in his arms.

After a long time, Xufeng suddenly said, "Yu'er, tell me about Carp."

"… What are you talking about … You've already seen it …"

"Anything is fine. I want to hear it from you."

Run Yu didn't make a sound for a long time. Just when Xufeng thought he had fallen asleep, he faintly opened his mouth.

His voice was very calm. It seemed that the intense emotions that had once been at their peak had been exhausted by the long time of longing.

"When Carp was born, he was very thin and small, about the size of my palm.

He's a small fire dragon with a tiny horn on his head. At first glance, it looks like two small bulges. The scales on his body are different from mine. They're scarlet red. Dawn Phoenix, they're the same color as your feathers. They even have patterns of flames. You didn't see them, but they're really beautiful. "

"He was very, very obedient. I took him to Dongting Lake. He didn't cry or make a fuss. He just slept quietly with his small hands holding the front of my clothes.

But when I handed him to my mother, he suddenly opened his eyes.

That was the first time I saw Carp's eyes. They were black and shining like black pearls. My shadow was reflected in them.

He babbled and reached out to me, wanting me to hold him, but I turned and left. "

"He was so small, but he seemed to know everything. He immediately began to cry. He was so obedient before.

I didn't dare to look back. I was afraid that if I did, I wouldn't be able to leave anymore.

My mother later told me that Carp kept crying that day. She couldn't coax him no matter how hard she tried. Carp cried until his voice was hoarse and he fainted. Only then did he stop. "

… …

Xu Feng quietly listened to Runyu telling Li 'er's story bit by bit. It was so detailed and so clear, as if he had never forgotten every minute and every moment he spent with Li' er. It was so vivid in his mind.

Unlike what he saw in the Night Pearl, Run Yu was now lying in his arms.

His longing, his loneliness, his temporary happiness, and his heart-wrenching pain were vividly displayed in front of Xufeng.

Xufeng had hated himself for missing out on that period of time countless times, but he had never hated it as much as he did today.

He felt pain for Yu 'er and hatred for Carp. He even doubted whether he deserved to be forgiven.

"Xufeng," Run Yu had just finished his last sentence. He was silent for a long time before he suddenly asked, "Cleansing Glass Fire … when it touches your body, does it hurt?"

Following Run Yu's words, that scene appeared in front of Xufeng's eyes again: Mother Goddess's palm imprinted on Carp's head. The bluish-purple Cleansing Glass Fire burned fiercely in her palm …

Xufeng trembled as he exhaled. He said intermittently, "Cleansing Glass Fire … if it directly burns the primordial spirit … the physical body won't feel any pain …"

"That's good … I'm afraid that Carp will feel too much pain when he leaves … that's good …"

Run Yu murmured. He had talked for an entire night. At this time, his eyes were not clear and his whole person was extremely weak.

Xufeng hurriedly wiped away his tears, laid him flat and covered him with the blanket. Then, he sat by the bed and caressed his face with one hand while holding his hand with the other. He said softly, "Sleep. Don't think about anything. Sleep, okay?"

"Okay." Run Yu obediently closed his eyes. He was so obedient that it made one's heart ache.

Xufeng stayed by the bed until he fell asleep. Then, he got up and left. But he didn't know that the moment he turned around, Run Yu opened his eyes again.

The sky was already bright. Xufeng went to the kitchen. It was still in a mess after yesterday's work. The leftover green rice balls were still on the stove, completely cold.

Xufeng walked over, picked up one and put it into his mouth.

He took a bite and then … broke down.

Xufeng's eyes were tightly closed. He leaned against the stove and slowly slid down. He burst into tears. His low and hoarse cries echoed in the narrow kitchen …

After a while, he seemed to remember that Run Yu was next door. He bit the back of his hand with his teeth, but the heavy sobs continued to overflow from the gaps between his teeth.

At this time, Run Yu suddenly rushed in and desperately pulled his hand away.

Looking at the back of Xu Feng's hand that was dripping with blood, Runyu finally couldn't hold it in anymore. She hugged Xu Feng and cried loudly.

"Xufeng, I'm sorry, I'm sorry …"

Xufeng was so flustered by his crying that he even forgot that he was crying. He pushed Run Yu away a little, held his face, and said with heartache, "Fool, what are you sorry for? When did you let me down?"

Run Yu choked and said, "I shouldn't have said that to you … In fact, you're also very sad, right?

In fact, you're as sad as I am … Carp is my child, and he's also yours … You want him to live, don't you? "

"I want him to live even in my dreams. I'd rather die …" Xufeng kissed Run Yu's tears. "But Yu'er, Carp is gone. His soul no longer exists in this world. We can't find him anymore."

"I know, I just … I just can't forget …"

Xufeng stared seriously into Run Yu's eyes. "Yu'er, you don't need to forget.

We'll remember him together. As long as we remember, Carp will exist. He'll never disappear, okay? "

"Okay …" Run Yu nodded desperately. "Okay."

The two of them hugged each other tightly. After a long time, Run Yu's sobs slowly stopped.

He stepped back and wiped Xufeng's tears with his sleeve. He whispered, "Xufeng, I don't blame you anymore."

Xufeng held his hand. "It doesn't matter if you blame me. Anyway, I'll always be with you until we're old and die. Then, we'll go find Carp together, okay?"

Run Yu smiled and said with a nasal voice, "Okay."

Run Yu ran out barefooted. He didn't even put on his coat. Xufeng carried him to the small bench behind the stove and sat him down. He went back to the house to get a robe and boots for him and helped him put them on one by one.

Then, Xufeng cooked a pot of millet porridge and steamed the remaining green balls again.

The two of them didn't eat anything yesterday. At this time, they didn't want to go to the dining room. They stayed behind the stove and finished the porridge and green balls.

After taking a bite of the green balls, their eyes were filled with tears. But as soon as their eyes met, the two of them couldn't help but laugh.

If other people saw the way they cried and laughed, they would probably think that they were two idiots.

After eating, they didn't bother to wash up. Xufeng held Run Yu's hand and returned to the bed. After a while, they fell asleep in each other's arms.