There are two black and blue lines on the paper, interspersed with the karma, love and hate of the previous life, entangled with the true and false past.

Song Yu lowered her head and stared blankly, her expression shocked and confused.

He is frightened.

Xie Sui says: "Who wrote 'Gentle Control' and where did you read it? Can you tell me, Yu Yu?"

Song Yu steps on the blanket barefoot, feels a chill spread all over his body, and his head is in a mess.

He purses his lips and grabs his hair. He makes up his mind and decides to confess: "At first, I thought I was not from this world."

"I read this book in another world. After sleeping for a while, I transmigrated into this world."

"There is a thing that claims to be a system. It told me a lot, the general idea is to let me follow the plot, but I didn't listen. I chose to go to Jing City to find you, and then it was very angry and disappeared.

When it came back, it told me not to like you, but I still like you, and it left angrily. "

Xie Sui nods with gentle eyes.

Song Yu's mood slowly stabilizes, and he is silent for a while. He doesn't intend to tell Xie Sui about 008's revenge and regret. He just says seriously and calmly: "Xie Sui, if one day I suddenly faint or fall asleep, don't be afraid. At that time, I should meet the system and the Lord God.

I will definitely kill them, and then wake up to find you. "

Xie Sui holds his cold hand and says in a low voice: "OK."

Song Yu looks up carefully and traces her face with his eyes under the light.

Eyebrows, nose bridge, lips, familiar and intimate.

The chill in his heart is driven away by the warm current, and he smiles again: "Finally, it's clear."

Xie Sui also smiles and kisses him in the corner of his eye.

"It's clear."

Song Yu feels that he can't guess Xie Sui's mind.

But all the root causes and crises are on him. As her boyfriend, Xie Sui should also be uncomfortable.

Song Yu comforted her, "Don't panic. Ever since I woke up, I didn't do anything the System said. It can't do anything to me now."

"That's amazing, Yu Yu."

Xie Sui said with a smile, but her eyes were cold.

Song Yu felt a little sour in his heart. He knew that mentioning 008 and the Lord God would only add to his troubles. How could he resolve these two ideologies? However, this was the only sense of security he could give Xie Sui now.

He changed the topic. "When you were reborn, did you think that I was stupid at first?"

"What?"

"… I think so."

Thinking of this, Song Yu cursed in his heart.

Xie Sui said, "No, I already said that it was love at first sight. I like everything you do."

Song Yu was comforted, and his eyes fell on the diary next to him.

"Was that written by Aunt Xu?"

"Yes." Xie Sui opened the diary and said softly, "Do you want to see it?"

Under the dim yellow light of the table lamp, the words on the diary took him into the life of a woman who died for love.

Xie Sui said slowly, "When I was born, she cut off contact with the Xu family. She lived in a villa in the mountains and focused on painting.

There was only one nanny at home, and my father might come once every few weeks.

When I was young, I didn't have much to say to her. She always lived in her own world, and no one could disturb her. "

"After she died, I always hated her.

In many people's eyes, she was a beautiful and stupid woman. No one sympathized with her. They felt that she deserved everything. "

Xie Sui paused and said calmly, "In my eyes, she used to be like that."

Song Yu quietly held her hand.

"Before she died, she gave me indifference. After she died, she tortured me. She gave me life, but she didn't ask me if I wanted to come to this world to bear all these."

"She ended her life on my birthday." Xie Sui paused and said lightly, "Life and death on the same day."

He turned to the middle pages of the diary. "This diary has been in the cabinet of my home in Jing City, but I haven't read it. In my last life, Xie Sinian sent it to me and asked me to read it."

"When I began to understand her, I found that it was meaningless to hate her."

"She was just a failure of a mother."

"She was spoiled since she was a child. Only others gave her a lot of love. She didn't know how to love at all.

Xie Sinian was just one of the reasons why she cut off the relationship with the Xu family. What made her collapse was her family. Her parents, who had raised her and spoiled her for more than ten years, began to push her to those powerful men in A City like an auction. Her marriage became a deal.

She was sad and collapsed, so she chose to have a cold war with her family first. "

Song Yu looked at Xu Qiao's small handwriting in the diary.

During the time in the villa in the mountains, he could see her care and fear in every word. She was cautious as a first-time mother.

"Today, A Sui was praised by the teacher again. He is really a smart boy." "I want to do something for him, but I don't seem to know how to do anything." "A Sui drew pictures for me. I should praise him and pat his head to encourage him. But what did I do?" "My A Sui is great, but I can't even let him go to school normally." "Xie Sinian came and we had a quarrel. A Sui was frightened. He cried so much during the day that I didn't dare to see him. The nanny said that he was asleep, so I dared to see him secretly."

Xie Sui didn't speak anymore.

Song Yu took the diary and turned the pages slowly.

Xu Qiao seldom mentioned Xie Sui in the latter part of the diary. He recorded Xie Sui's growth bit by bit. Xie Sui was aloof and antisocial. She didn't know how to get along with her child. She could only learn to respond slowly and clumsily.

There was a page with a lot of folds. It should have been wet by tears countless times. When she knew the truth, she collapsed and couldn't say a word.

"Why?" These three words kept repeating.

During the period when she was framed by Qin Qiuyun and hid in Jing City, the diary was empty for many days.

When she picked up the pen again, it was already the third day since she arrived in Jing City.

In Xie Sui's memory, her mother, who was driven crazy by love, locked herself in her room, was sometimes calm and sometimes crazy. When she was calm, she thought about her future and Xie Sui's future. She thought that she could still draw pictures and raise her child healthily.

In fact, she had opened the door countless times. When Xie Sui was sleeping late at night, she would stare at her child for the whole night and cry silently.

Xie Sui remembered a past in Jing City. "Do you know why Zhu Zhixing's family hates me so much?"

Song Yu was stunned. "What?"

"In fact, she tried to go out to work. But on the first night, Zhu Zhixing's father followed her upstairs.

He forced her at the door. I rushed out of the room, pushed him downstairs and broke his leg. "

Song Yu's throat was dry.

For a moment, he didn't know what to say.

Xu Qiao was protected too well. She was like a fragile and precious flower, unable to withstand a single blow. Any wind and rain outside could easily destroy her.

The Xu family raised her in this way because they hoped that she would live a docile and beautiful life in a gorgeous cage like a canary in the future.

She was helpless against the evils of the world. Beauty was the original sin.

She was such a proud person. Every day, she lived in the vicious words of women.

Later on, Song Yu also slowly found clues about her death from the later pages of the diary.

"I'm sorry. From the moment you were born, I wasn't a qualified mother. I didn't give you a brilliant childhood. I didn't fulfill any obligations related to the word 'mother'. I even had to learn how to communicate with you bit by bit. I didn't even hold you before you were one year old.

"You were born when I was at my worst, so I left my worst and most embarrassing side to you.

When she wrote this line, she seemed to be really sad. Her handwriting trembled. She was so sad that she couldn't hold the pen or write a word.

There were no tears on the paper, but it was more desperate than any previous collapse.

"At that time, she already knew Xie Sinian's identity. She couldn't face it. She also felt that her existence was destined to drag me down.

"Before she died, she wrote a letter to Xie Sinian. She didn't get through to his phone, so she sent messages and emails. She also contacted the Xu family.

"She felt that she was the sinner who caused all my suffering. She wanted to use her death to exchange for Xie Sinian's guilt or the Xu family's forgiveness. She wanted to give me a good future.

But she was too naive. The Xie family had Qin Qiuyun, and the Xu family had Xu Shien. How could she get what she wanted?

And I don't like this birthday gift at all. "

Song Yu's eyes were a little sad. He raised his head quietly, but only saw Xie Sui's emotionless expression.

Xie Sui whispered to him, "It's all in the past."

Song Yu nodded slowly.

He turned to the first page of the diary. On the title page, there was a line of words written with a pen. It seemed to be a play that Xu Qiao heard on the old TV when he first came to Jing City. It could also be the words that Grandma Chen whispered in her ear.

Each stroke was more hurried than the last, as if to vent all the anger and collapse in her heart. At the last two words, she slowed down and stopped for a long time. The ink seeped into the paper.

"He taught me to let go of my hatred, to stop being coquettish, to start anew, to change my temperament, to give up love, to turn back from the sea of bitterness, and to realize Lanyin early." It was as if he saw the woman with tears at the end of time.

She didn't realize Lanyin early.

Instead, she fell into the sea of bitterness and swallowed the fruit alone.

To end with death.

Song Yu didn't know why, but when he saw this line, his heart also tightened. He didn't know what he had done in the forgotten memory.

Xie Sui said, "Are you sleepy?"

Song Yu shook his head. He was energetic. He closed the diary and whispered, "You didn't ask me about Zhao Ziyu."

Xie Sui rubbed his hair. "He also remembered the things in his previous life. I know."

Song Yu widened his eyes slightly. "You heard it all?"

Xie Sui smiled. "Yes."

Not only did he discover it, but he might have also found a clue to break the stalemate from these messy affairs.

Song Yu sighed and cursed the system and the Lord God in his heart.

Weren't they doing well in this life? Why did so many terrible people and things come?

Thinking of this, Song Yu said, "After the New Year, you …?"

Xie Sui said, "You promised to accompany me for three years of high school. You won't go back on your word, right?"

Song Yu said, "That was before. I didn't know you were reborn!"

Xie Sui smiled and said, "I'll follow you. I'll go wherever you go."

After talking about so many heavy topics, Song Yu's feet were cold and his whole body shivered.

Xie Sui raised her eyebrows and bent down. Her warm hands grasped his cold ankles, and then she urged him to go to bed without any resistance.

Song Yu lay in bed and couldn't fall asleep. He turned on his phone and saw the explosive message that he hadn't finished reading.

On the forum, "God Xie is my boyfriend" was also trending like a skyscraper.

Song Yu received Ma Xiaoding's questioning.

He was heartbroken.

[Sadako doesn't forget the well-digger: Brother Yu, so you've been lying to me all this time!

This is too much!

What's your relationship with God Xie!]

Song Yu froze for a second, thinking about how to explain. After all, his theory in the psychology lecture that love was not as good as learning was still being talked about. He couldn't slap his own face.

What relationship?

A relationship of sleeping in the same bed.

[Your husband, Brother Yu: A serious relationship.]

[Sadako doesn't forget the well-digger:???

You actually only replied now. I already know!

I guessed it!

Not only did I guess it, but I'm also going to go out and talk nonsense!]

The sky was high and the emperor was far away. He was really itching for a beating.

Song Yu gritted his teeth.

[Your husband, Brother Yu: Then you can do a divination for yourself first. If your points don't exceed six, you're a jinx.]

Xie Sui said, "Why don't you tell him?"

Song Yu hurriedly put away his phone and stammered, "This, we're still too young."

Xie Sui smiled and leaned over to hug him. Her hot breath blew into his ear. "But we did everything in our previous lives."